Yesterday was my birthday, and I am 51 years old. I have decided that after 50, it doesn't make any difference who knows my age. It is what it is. I need to embrace and enjoy the 50's. There has never been a time in my life that I have been happier. My grandchildren bring me more joy that can be expressed with words. My husband is my best friend and with me forever. My children are my friends, they are better than I was or have ever been. They are smart and the two oldest, Krissa and Stephen have best job in the world, which is raising my grandchildren!!! My youngest children are a joy to live through. They have the world at their fingertips and can shoot for the moon. I pray every day that all my children will take advantage of what life offers and live to the fullest with joy in their hearts. That is something I am only learning at 51 and I want them to know far sooner and avoid the silly mistakes I had to learn it from. What I want them to know is that if nothing else, I am proof that we can get through anything if we just endure and never, ever quit. Pick yourself up, dust yourself off, love and embrace who you are and what you have been blessed with, learn from your mistakes, move on forward with faith that God is in control and that if we just put our hand in his and do his will, we will have everything we need to survive and be together forever. Be yourself, that is what we are best at!
At the beginning of the week I was babysitting McKailey and Owen while Krissa and Dave went on a cruise. I really enjoyed it. It was great to bond and be that "person" in their lives that loves them more than anyone else around. I could just eat them up they are so cute and fun. Do you ever love someone so much you don't know what to do with all the joy? That is when you squeeze them and tickle them and make them laugh and tell them you love them so much.
Steve had an important business retreat that he needed me to attend with him. I was sick about leaving the kids when their mom was so far away. I am so grateful to Taylor, Sarah, and Ali for making this all possible. I bet I called Taylor at least 20 times the first day I was gone. He consistently reassured me that he was fully capable and that he would take good care of them. What a blessing. I think I just took over Krissa's worry and all that happened is that we both worried for nothing. Why do we do that to ourselves?
I was in Tucson with Steve for my birthday. He was in meetings all day and the most gorgeous flowers arrived for me from him. Really, they are beautiful. What really bites is that I can't get them home when we leave tomorrow. They are too beautiful to just leave here. What should I do with them? I wish I could give them to someone that needed a lift. They are such happy flowers. They make you smile just smelling them and touching the soft petals. While he was working I was at the spa getting a massage, a pedicure and getting my hair done. What pampering!!!! And the best part is that it was free. I did make one big mistake that I am actually glad I finally learned about. There is a difference between a Swedish massage and a Deep Tissue massage. Trust me when I say, stick with the Swedish unless you want to grit your teeth and hold your breath for 75 min. Yes, I said 75 minutes. I decided I wanted that instead of 50 minutes. I was too proud to say "it isn't comfortable, stop" I toughed it out. And....I actually feel much better this morning. I can see it helps, but I am not sure it is worth giving up the gentle relaxing touch of the Swedish. We live and learn.
I watched about three movies, did my needlepoint and ordered room service. I had a wonderful time. Just me, my sewing and technology at my fingertips. And wow, the tub is huge.
Too bad we don't drink. We had plenty of alcohol surrounding us. But hey, just look at that chocolate that came with it. Who needs to drink when there is such wonderful chocolate to indulge in?
Yum. And see that breakfast? Yeah, that is from the kids meal. Really? Kids in Tucson must be big eaters! I think I am ready for Steve to be done working though. I am looking forward to walking the gardens and going shopping :-) We can only take so much down time and relaxation before we go stir crazy. I am a blessed person and I am glad glad glad to be alive at 51!!!! Surrounded by lots of love and beautiful people.
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